empty-soul

2010-10-11T15:18:00.004+08:00

my hols occupied my work schedule. eventhough busy with work i did manage to meet my friends and have fun. went out to buy shoe, hari raya outing and marina barrage. i dont feel lonely when i with you. i do really appreciate our friendship-py,damien,ly,dawood,arif,dila,rid,nasiha,hafiz,yan,nurul,suzy and ham.

yest i dreamt about you.we having outing with a few of our friends. as we was waiting for you and the others come at the meeting place. and you came and i saw you bring along someone with youo and i know the girl-not gg to mention. they were holding hands, so comfortable with each other. when i saw them i smile and i got so jealous.. really jealous that i wanted to cry right there.

i just smile to them eventhough i really cried inside. after that, i just cant look at them. all along the so comfortably together.. i cant bear to see that all along.. really.. why cant be me instead. really broke my heart.

i woke up and say to myself that 'i thought im over him. but i want to forget him', but why? the moment i want to forget you, i felt so close to you. why is this happening. i want to close my heart for you cause what i think it is mot meant to be. oh allah, please help me to be strong....

2010-09-16T16:11:00.003+08:00

im just bored. so i upload picture. this picture took at sunway lagoon in KL..hehehe.. later im working.. haiz.. hahaha

2010-09-16T02:37:00.003+08:00

i just finish read a few of my post.i really like my posts in 'may 2009'.. i have been through alot that days. only allah knows it all. after i read all the post, it really touched my heart and make me smile alone in this room.but on the other hand, im in this room with total darkness, the outcome just make me so sad. really broke my heart. so now, i just need to learn to let it go, bit by bit. there is no use liking someone that have no feeling towards you.btw, i know who i am too.not that beautiful as other girls out there. it not that simple to let go. it been 2 years plus.btw, it hard to wait for something that wont happen. so it is the best thing to let it go and ignore.so now, i need to smile and laugh to cover all my sadness. like other people say-laughter is the best medicine. but sometime, im just little curious, did you ever think of me being ignored?? hhhmm. this is life. i hope i could find the person i like that likes me back. :) its like tossing my heart to see where it land in this darkness.. but i wont forget 3rd may and 10th august 2009. just me smile eventhough there is alot of silence between us. im trying to let it go..
:)

2010-09-16T02:08:00.003+08:00

its been ages i didnt update my blog..hahaha..

since im wide awake even having a little headache

its good idea to update my blog.. hahaha

tdy i went to bought peiyun present hehe

ssshhh... cannot tell.. hahaha

*secret*hehehe

i hope she will like it..

then, i decided to shop something for myself..

got a top from dorothy perkins,eyeshadow(loreal)*i like!!!*

and 'the last song' CD

it like finally got the CD!! coz i didnt got to watch the movie last time

the movie is really nice.

i recommend you guys to watch it if you guys havent watch it..

hhehehe

i so excited for this coming friday and saturday going jalan raya..

coz i havent get to go out for jalan raya as so many of

my cousins all came here..

but overall was fun, took all the photos and laughter

but tiring 'layan' them..hahaha

ok.. till here..

i will try to update blog if im not lazy.. :)

2010-07-05T14:48:00.003+08:00

yest was a bad day for me!! seriously.. just hate it so much.. till when we gg to be like this.. hmmm.. just sabar.. :(

im just bored in the library.. i hate the feeling right now. nowadays, i always rmb him.. ouh my god.. how? should i tell him again the feeling.. but i dont want to get rejected for the second time.. what i think it is the better this way also.. but on the other hand, i want to tell my feeling again.. how? i really miss you..
:(

2010-06-28T15:30:00.003+08:00

omg!! Its been so long i update this blog.. ahhaha.. lazy lah.. sch starts today!! and i woke up late. haiz... took cab to sch and i spent 15 bucks++.. just gone like that. :( i didnt prepare for lesson..i know i want to sleep!! haha.. i will update soon soon!! i more active in tumblr!!!

2010-04-07T07:57:00.003+08:00

monday:
went out with yan,damien,py. headed to plaza sing to watch movie.supposingly to watch 'when in rome'.i wanted to it so badly.end up watch 'clash of the titan'(2d), coz yan need to head gome early, as 'when in rome' starts late..miss my chance..haiz.. other day perhaps.as we waiting for the train, saw rachel went to her and chat for awhile..then, huiting came.they get down at orchard.after the movie, yan went home.we three seacrh for present for our dear friend.. it took ours man..shirt,bag,wallet.. in the end, we chose a wallet instead.at first, we were in bugis,then in bugis no stock so we need to head to suntec city. so we decide to walk despite to train.. hahaha.. otw, we ate our chocolaty donuts.hee.after we get the stuff, he headed to carrefour to get some drinks.after i a tiring day, we took buss home..

tues:
the whole day, with my guitar.. learning.. in front of the laptop.i tell you, fingers is crying for help already..hee. my fingertips are all kinda numb.. what to do..coz im the one who wants to learn badly.. so, need sacrifice abit..hahaha

wed:
now i am.. sitting in front of the laptop at 8.10am early morning blogging. if not, im still on my bed sleeping till afternoon. this all because of my block nose and cough..haiz..hahaha.. i just wanna to update after a long time..hee

2010-03-06T20:39:00.003+08:00

getting bored at home man..like seriously..*sigh*
so i took my time, to learn guitar..hahah..can u believe it.. hahaha
the greatest thing is that...the sixth sting is gone..hahahah(sarcastic)
when i get my pay.. im gonna fix it, do to the shop...
ahahaha
now my fingers is hurting because press to hard on the string hahaha..
besides that, a few day already, my body always aching..*sigh*

2010-03-04T20:28:00.003+08:00

today i woke up early.. it so rare hahahahah...coz i met my mom at mac at tp. when i get down the bus, guess wad saw my two fellow friends.. dila and kiki..wad a coincidence..hahaha..they came along ate breakfast with me and my mom..we talked and eat. mid of our chat i was told that today is beatty's sports day.. that is why when i in the bus passed by, the school looks so quiet+no one.then, saw beng guan and wei wen. then, i accompanied kiki to her school for registration and left my mother took bus alone.. felt kinda sorry for her.
after we reached the school done half way of her registration, she forget to withdraw money.. how great, the mid of the registration, we walk under the scorching hot sun to interchange, full of sweat, like waterfall..hahahah..then we walk back.. why cant they make shelter or underground..

kiki: klau aku jadi president, aku suroh dierorang buat shelter. make your life easy

*macam paham jer, tu anak*

LOL

after finish registration and bought some uniform, we headed bishan library to cool ourselves..feel so relieve..

more more more

*lazy to move on*

hahahahahahaha

planning to go sentosa.soon.soon

2010-03-03T16:58:00.003+08:00

next week is going to be a busy week for me, doing my registration.hopefully can purchase a notebook for myself, i cant wait.hehehe..today is a tiring day for me, i think it's the weather today. the sun is scorching hot.phew!! went to parkway parade with my sister and mom walk walk walk.. then headed to nanyang optical to make my mom's spectecles. i tell you kecoh lah sey.. she spent $300++.. wah... let her be..her money.hehehe..arios..
i hope i can update my blog soon...hehehe (Y)

2010-02-03T00:12:00.002+08:00

for now..

im tired tired tired lah sey

two more days to go..

full shift lah..

tak leh angkat..

2010-01-26T03:19:00.003+08:00

when i look at you

i feel the inspiration

when i look at you

i feel the song

when i look at you

felt no guarantee

when i look at you

reminds me all the simple things

when i look at you

its happiness

when i look at you

its hurtful

when i look at you

it emotionless

when i look at you

i feel like crying non-stop

when i look at you

all seems alright

when i look you

my world is falling apart

when i look at you

i cant find my way home

when i look at you

i feel lost

when i look at you

im speechless

when....

i talk to you...

my heart is beating fast....

and my soul feel lost....

one-sided love

should i say goodbye?......

2010-01-18T22:30:00.003+08:00

hello
i decided to blog today..hahaha, after a long time.getting lazy each day to blog.last week is my worse week ever.i think it far more worse than sitting o level.for the last few day, i kept going out and i also running out of kachings$$(how great is that!).i want to work, but lazy at the moment, at the same time, idk lah..hahaha. today was a great day though, i went out with shar and yan.i cant remember when the last time i go out with that crazy girl(jkjkjk).we went vivo, walk here and there, and we decide to watch 'sherlock holmes'.oh my!! it was AWESOME!! mr holmes was freaking smart man.i wish i could be like him..hahaha... no regret watching..and the movie was funny too!!
im kinda miss all my boyfriends..hahaha..kinda weird..idk why..because i think i miss those laughter..can we have gathering or smth.. hahaha...
sabirah is in her own world already..kinda miss my girlfriends too.. haha

2010-01-08T00:03:00.003+08:00

i want to thank kiki..
if u didnt signal me... i seriously dk wad to do..
hahahaha
ily...thank you..hahaha

he like it..
i was like 'phew!'

hhmmm... after tiring bbq yest...
i woke up early tdy to meet my old friends.. the gilers...hahaha
we went to botanical garden...feeling photoshoots lah babe..
i went there for the first time..
the place was nice..
should go there some other time..
love it... especially for photograph-ing

now.. so many things in mind,, im gg through..
the main things is..... RESULT!!!RESULT!!!RESULT!!!
ITS OUT ON MONDAY!!!!!!
MONDAY.... RESULT....
MONDAY.... RESULT....
MONDAY.... RESULT....

2010-01-03T01:14:00.003+08:00

ouh my.. it 2010!!!
time flies so fast..
it been quite a long time since update my blog..hahaha
so yeah!!!
i just wanna say HELLO 2010!!
its new year for everyone.. and of coz new resolution too.
my tumblr like died..im gonna update soon..
hahaha...
i just saw masiha's tumblr..
she said she dreamt abt us..hahaha
she miss us... and i miss you too babe..
when we gg to meet up..?
haiz~..

soon we gg to meet up k..

till here..
bye..

2009-12-22T01:15:00.003+08:00

omg!! today is a very tiring day for me ever..
full shift babe..
physically and mentally tired men..
the job was ok lah..
make quite alot of friends.. they are friendly and funny at times..
i feel so good that tomorrow im in afternoon shift.. pheww!!

ok whatever...

then, last saturday i had bbq downstair my house.
it was last minute one..
kinda fun..or i will say was ok..
i was too tired to get involved..hahaha.. tired with work..
like the..
hahahaha..
the bbq food was yum yum!!

i miss that person that is far away from me..

2009-12-13T03:49:00.003+08:00

now, i at punggol... at my brother's place...
stilll awake,, but any moment i can fall asleep
at this period..now is 3.51am
today, nothing much happen..
stayed at home an dhelp out my sister's work..
monday, im going to start work..
finally i have a job..
its better than sit at home..rot the whole day..
what i always do is sit,eat and watch tv at home..
that is os f****** boring lah..
when i sign in msn.. also boring not really in a chatting mood sometimes..
and i do really misses school..especially the laughter with all my friends..
ahahaha..now, im like getting emotional in the morning...omg!!
whatever it is,, im looking forward to our class bbq..
i hope is gg well... and I REALLY HOPE that, this time will be a success one unlike before..
hahahahah..
got to go..bye

misses all that are far away from me..

you and me make a volume of book cover..

2009-12-11T01:45:00.004+08:00

i woke up today and enter to the bathroom..

i heard some noise outside..

i dont really care..

then, i took a peep and i saw my cousin..

i was abit clueless..why they here suddenly.

hari raya haji finish already..

then, they came here to give us invitation card for wedding lah..

chey,, i thought what..

i played with my niece as i have nothing to do..

play play play till got hungry..

so i ate...

then, i proceed to my drawing..

drew tigger..hehehe..(hhmm not so nice though)

at night.. help out my sister with her work..

btw, TAYLOR LAUTNER..is hot sexy cool teenager guy man..

i just knew he same age as us..

OMG!!

with his hot body... bboommzz!

he do marshal arts.. he can dance..(that is so surprising)

he is so cute when he was little..

2009-12-10T01:32:00.004+08:00

hi!!!
yesterday, i slept quite late, i think around 4.30am
and its difficult for me to wake early today..
*sigh*
its had been three days i rot at home..
hhmmm its really boring..

I REALLY MMMIISSSS SSCCCHHHOOOLLL!!!

its going two weeks... away..
.fine.i.is.just.*.hope.
9-14-25..

friend.really.a.i.having.like.***.glad.
should.i.glad.be.i.that.talk.still.***to.friend.be. ***.with.ppl.unlike.other.

guy:helo
girl: HHEEELLLO..(cant stop smiling)
girl:how are you?
guy:im fine..urself?
girl:im fine.
....
....
....

GUY talk to GIRL..
GIRL kinda surprised as she saw the GUY status was off

2009-12-08T01:07:00.003+08:00

heelllooo heeelllooo hheeeellooo

today, i watched THE TWILIGHT SAGA: NEW MOON

wah i tell you taylor lautner super hot!!

i like his character in the movie..protect bella

love it!!

9-14-25

alot...

i just that hope that ------ is fine...

2009-12-07T01:27:00.003+08:00

heelloo...
i accompanied my sister go for her friend's wedding at tampines..
its was ok lah.. but the food was AWESOME!!
nice nice nice...
then, we headed to tampines mall(if im not wrong, it near the mrt station), jalan2..
i dont really went there before..it was ok lah..
nice place though..
then, we decided to meet my parents at another jemputan..
it nearby..so yeaahh..
we thought to take a bus there..
we have no idea wad bus go there..end up we took cab..
rather near...abit leceh..
my mum wanted to spectacles at marine parade..then end up, she dont want
malas...haiyo..
instead, my dad drove all the way to sungai road, to see some stuff..
i slept in the car from kallang > sungai road > home..
it has been along time, i havent sleep in the car..kinda shiok arh..
ahahaha
gtg now..bye

2009-12-04T19:11:00.003+08:00

hey hellooo..!!!
just came back from interview at tanjong pagar
with dila and kak aisyah..
they are just weird sisters..but fun arh..
its packaging job..1hr-$7 babe..
but arh it at night sia..
tak tido sey..
i dont know should i go for it..
hhmmm
if its long..hhmmm i think i go for ly's job
must wait for my mum and sister green light..
when i turn 18, im gg to work at cheer's arh as part-time..
for my pocket money..hhmm
kesian ehk..
my life is so not like others lah..
can get money like a snap..
hhmm....
i reaallyy need *kaching* so badly..
by the way, cant wait to watch 'the twilight saga:new moon'
i think i gg to be in team jacob and team edward..hehehehehe
gonna go..
cya..

2009-12-03T02:51:00.003+08:00

hey blooogggyyy...
im so bored at home and rot like no one business..
i really need a job man..
suitable and flexuble..
oouuhhh mmmaaaannn!!!
its already been three days like this..
i cant get anything i want..
aarrrggghh!!!
when can i get my allowance..(yang tak seberape)
if i really cant get a job.. i think im going back F.A..
hahahahaha...
i dont want to be choosy at things..
i must appreciate wad im going to have..
by the way, facebook i getting boring and boring each day..
now.. i really into facebook game as there nothing much more..
like crazy taxi~bouncing balls~parking mania..
it can be a boring stupid game..
but after awhile..its fun, as i have nothing to do..
hehehehe
(i like to type long form, now)
take up my time..
hahahaha
it getting late..
better sleep huh..
arios amigos..

9-14-25

2009-12-01T18:44:00.004+08:00

kiki,dila and viona goes to class bbq..

have fun guys..

and me, just rot at home man..

so boring..

i cant wait to watch new moon..

robert pattinson,krirten stewart and taylor laurtner.. OMG!!

planning to watch someone..

too bad..cant make it..

ouhh man..

see you soonn..

bye..

9-14-25

2009-11-30T22:06:00.005+08:00

the days had goes by..
its so bored with no *kaching* inside my pocket
i need a job.. omg..
haiz..
-- is gg tmr..
i guess i will ---- ---
now i alrdy ---- ---..
still can survive..

you know what.. now, i really miss school..
the fun,the scolding,the great people,the disturbing
more more more..
of course all of it..
kinda hate sitting at home and rot..
watching tv and computer..
fb now..is like full of boredom now..
ahahaha
now..i want to open tumblr..
some fashion..i think its going nice..
so i can learn some fashion..
now im learning some make up skill..hehehehe
im so into fashion..like nice arh..
so yeah..

missing all my friends... :(

2009-11-14T03:18:00.003+08:00

tmr gg for job hunting with nasiha and yan.
hehehe..
wondering wad job im gonna apply..
*kening naik*
need some money..
at the same time, wanna have some fun too..
but some of us not free..
i dying to go out with you..
its so bored at home..
i wanna dye my hair..
no money..
ouh job..pls give me..
aahahaha

*winks*

love you..

2009-11-13T02:08:00.003+08:00

ita 2.08am..
not yet sleepy..
looking forward tmr..
gonna swim..
hehehehe..
but at the same, pity mum.. need to jaga two kids..
haiz..
when im gg to find job..
hhmmm..
some my friends have jobs alrdy..
wad im gg to work arh..
alahai..

my dear friend im gonna miss you..*kening naik2*

2009-11-12T01:28:00.003+08:00

its a relieve o's was over..
but on the other hand, worrying about the results..
hhmmm..haiz..
its gg to a long hols..
*kening naik2*
im gonna have some fun 1st..then, gonna find job..
its gg to be a hard time..hhmm
so many things in mind..
got the feeling to dye my hair..
rebond..many many more..
im looking forward on friday n sat..
gonna have some fun..
hehehehehe..
bye..cya..

2009-08-22T22:36:00.003+08:00

prelim is in two weeks time..
ouh god, it is so stress..
now, i need to be more focus..

im gg to retaking my MT..that one is another thing..
haiz..
why cant i do like others..getting A1..
it my MT..why other ppl can, why i cant?
but its ok..
i did give the best i can..
nvm..it my first try..maybe second try..it would be better..
i just need my friends n family motivation..
so that i can look forward..
not only for MT, but also for other subjects..
alright...

today...
my day was rather ouhk...
went to skygarden with my study grp
i think we shld improve some things within us..
n i rather dont say much abt this...

today was the first day of fasting month..
too bad, that i cant fast on the first day..
how sad is that..
hhmmm

idk why this days i did think abt that thing so much..
how come?
me, myself also wondering..
ouh god..
its ok...

P.S. imy with much love

2009-08-18T18:03:00.003+08:00

as the day goes by..
MT result coming out tmr..
omg..
i feel so nervous..
i do hope i get good result..

btw, today we had class bonding..
it was rather fun..
everyone took part in the game..
viknesh moonwalk was super nice..
n the other..
pretty well posed in their catwalk..
musical chair, also not bad..interesting
we had fun though..
ahaha..
yan with his pole dance..
sean,shaik n hafiz also join the fun..it was funny..

elefnig-os-hsy(807190)

2009-08-13T19:59:00.003+08:00

as the day goes by...

smile that i always does..

i tot things will go well?

why cant i do this properly?

not even a word come out from my mouth

as per normal..

P.S. no desire..

2009-08-11T18:58:00.003+08:00

it was rather weird but ok..
i just cant describe it...

i wish.....

btw... G.I.Joe was awesome..

2009-08-10T02:25:00.003+08:00

since like ages i didnt blog...
btw.. HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY S'PORE!!
this year ndp was rather interesting from the past years..
so yea...nth much to say lah..

when im trying to go far away..
there will always smth...
hhmmm...
i guess thats all for now..
i think much in the morning..ahaha

2009-07-26T01:04:00.004+08:00

more people getting sick these days..

do get well soon people..

or not..im gonna missed you..

im just going far away...

eventhough i feel like this..

wad i can do now?

nothing much..

im just acting, like nothing happen..

wads wrong with me??

even, wad i do,, is it the right move..

why im feeling this way?

at the first place,, why is this happening?

i just nt sure wad im doing..

why must it to be this way?

i kept it for so long...

i just cant let it out like that

doesnt mean with a laughter..u are happy in the inside..

2009-07-17T18:04:00.004+08:00

such a drag day today..

boredom...
haiz..

i think this week of school is very short..

i feell today, as though is wednesday..

time flies so fast..

piles of homework this days..

no time to do revision..

wanna spend my weekend to study..

i really need to buck up..

there is not much time left.

its just hard to describe how i feel towards you..

i need to act as though as nothing..

but deep inside my heart,

it is difficult to let it out..

is just like other people say, that u cant really tell someone

how u feel towards the person

its easy to say, but not,, doing it..

anything happen, dun think anything, harsh..

like i said...

i do need the courage to face it n move on..

*is not wrong to have this feeling at this age, right..?*

2009-07-10T17:05:00.004+08:00

so many things happen..

party at sumitro's hse..

be yrself day..

MT oral..

ouh god...

my MT oral..screwed up abit..

i hope that i didnt go out of point..

i did my best..

i was too nervous..
the mixture feelings..

but, its alrdy past.. i just wait for the result..

haiz...

overall..

things went well this days..

i just need to have the courage and the confident to do it..

i dont know what's inside there..

but im nt gg to dig it..

wait for the time to come..
but how long im gg to wait?

deep down inside..ily..

2009-07-04T14:31:00.003+08:00

hey..
i addicted by kris allen song.
'no boundries'
my sis influenced me..
ahaha

whatever lah..
sine monday, i always getting sleepy in class..
ouh my..
i must wake up..
i have no much time alrdy..
i need some one to wake me up
and motivate me..
like H said, must think positive..
ahhaha
funny guy lah he
whatever lah..

now, im adjusting my way..
every way i can..
just think positive..
so, i can do it..

seconds, hours, so many day
you know what you want, but how long you can wait?
every moment lasts forever
when you feel you're lost your way

what if my chance were already gone?
I started believing that i could be wrong
but you give me one good reason
to fight and never walked away

so here i am, still holding

with every step, you climb up mountain
every breathe, it's harder to believe
you'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
to get that one thing

just when you think the roag is going nowhere
just when you almost gave up on your dreams
they take you by the hand and show you that you can
there no boundries
there no boundries

i fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
what if today is as good as its get?
dont know where the future's heading
but nothing's gonna bring me down
i've jumped every bridge and i've run every line
i risked being safe but i always knew why
i always kney why

so here i am, still holding ...

to be continued..
hahaha

2009-06-30T18:00:00.003+08:00

today was 2nd day of school..
3 period of eng period..
msJ absent..relax arh babe
we all knocked down..and sleep..
hehehehe
its quite rather boring though..
coz..all were died..
but.. the last period..
we played game..
need to concentrate real hard..
me..so confident sey..
hahaha
i dont want to say it..

things went quite smooth lah..
but.. when im gg to -----!!!
im gonna feel awkward..
ouh god..
pls me give me the courage..
i dun want to make it so -------
1st thing, wad im gg to ---
walaw..
idk wad is so difficult to -----
-- ----- of ---
crap lah!!!
i just need alot of courage...
things will go well,, i guess..
so yeah...
nothing much to post..

yr smile make my day.. :D

2009-06-27T16:54:00.003+08:00

argh!! next monday school open..
shit lah..havent finish the hw(s)
die die die...
even more, i didnt study much..'
die die die!!!!
school reopen, im gonna chiong..
arh..
im trying to finish up hw soon

how i gonna say..
i share it with my sis..
i told my mom abt those thing..
now, i noe she dun mind..
but just ---- the good one..
ahahahah..
im dying to -- --- ---- ---
arh..
maybe -- nt ready yet..
should i keep it to myself or just..
i guess not..
but how..
i do really really really ---- ---
wad should i do?

its hard for me to do it..
im the only one can find the way
to make things right..
but the qns, how???
i just hate it when i didnt talk..
im just stress over it...
i noe that it cant be long..
to keep it..
right now,, i trying to be calm
and steady..

no one knows how i feel..

P.S. i think i cant do that!!! arghh!!!

2009-06-25T11:52:00.003+08:00

cant wake up sial today..
force myself, coz today got chemistry..
reach school.. the others were all late..
so yadyadayada...
went through 'more practice'
boring!!!
-- - shocked of the ------ ----
funny lah..
whatever lah..
then, kena forfeit because of kartik..
all of us are force to do the 'makarena'
'idk how to spell dah..'
cute lah,, some of them..
so yeah..that all..

nth much lah..
when is the ---??
waiting, i guess..
tmr accompany mom again..
so, cant go out...
i tot to go out lah (sad2)
nvm.. there is always next time.. i guess..
now my quote ' i guess'
whatever lah..
at lib, saw fatin and bf..
long time nv see her..
then, all the sudden, someone hit my chair..
then, i turned and saw haidir..
shocked sia..
i tot who not happy, hit my chair..
ahaha
funny lah him..

nth much happen lah today..

chao..bye!!!

P.S. i wish i could be like them!!

2009-06-24T23:00:00.010+08:00

2009-06-23T15:40:00.003+08:00

argh..
my hw not yet finish..
ouh god..
piles of hw man..
woke up late..
coz today there is no lesson..
ahahaa
kesian kwn aku dua tu..
ader lesson..
yest msn was gerek sia
with my beloved only friend tu..
agaknyer, tgh tido agaknyer org tu..
ahahaha
my sis also layan dier..
ahahaha

one more funny thing, is one of my bestie..
dier lagi bagus..
funny lah she..
send me bday msg hari nie..
then, she said, 'alamak!sory babe.. paisey nyer aku'
funny girl lah she..
sayang kau..
dont forget me here, huh..

wahh..tmr confirm rabak sia..
specially by A.. i guess..
because of yest..
heheheh..
'mangkok tingkat'
LOL

there is nothing in mind right now

P.S. soon lah...

2009-06-22T15:06:00.003+08:00

wah... its difficult to wake up early in the morning
coz today, i had lesson..
rather boring.. but gotta meet my friends..
so was ok lah..
disturb all around..
btw, i like the ---- -----
its cool lah..
ahahaha
'tak perlu'

i wish i could be like them..
why i cant..
i think its ok with it..
but why some ppl got issues with it??
im a good girl,, right??
let it be lah..
i think it is not the time yet..
but no,, wad..
why why why..
is bcoz im the --------
so wad..
i just WANT my -------
F*** lah..

haiz..

i must be strong,, eventhough wad may comes..

change topic...gg emotional..
i heard that there are gg to be an extend in hols..
because of the 'swine flu'
wdf..
'rolling eyes'
i just hate hols..
keep spending money..
i badly want a camera..
ARGHH!!
no money arh..
anyone want to buy for me??
(muka tak tau malu, siak)
mcm lah duit tu, monopoly..
hahahaha
just kidding..
really bored during the hols..
no one wants to entertain me..
haiz..
got the feeling, to go to the beach lah..
haiyo..
ahaha
nvm...

P.S. normal?!?! i guess so...
(dun be harsh to yourself, think positive, things will work well....i hope so)

2009-06-20T13:47:00.003+08:00

didnt blog for quite some time..
cant wait for school man..
i just hate to staying at home..
and hate the piles of hw..
its carzy man..
now im stuck doin my english..
f*** ***
now, idk where to go..
ARGH!!!!
wanted to go sentosa..
mom dont let me..
haiz..
i just hate it when is there no freedom..
ARGH!!!

wednesday

went sentosa with my bestie..

its rather fun though..

i was shocked when i saw suzy..

we already one gang..

hahaha

it was a big group lah..

fun.. make new friends..

i wish, i could meet u guys again.

i really missed those time together..

thursday..

do nth..really..

stay at home..bored

friday

went to east coast with family

without my dad..

just for a while..

then, went back home..

after a while,,

went to my uncle's hse..

as usual my mom fainted..

stupid, idiot 'thing'

so stubborn, dont want to go out..

the last part, i tell you..

super scary..

i felt that the throat coming out..

the best thing, i did was looked at her

and listen to music..

bad daughter..

ahahaha

got my big sis..

it was rather scary lah..

wad to do..

it is run in our families blood..

i just need to be strong..

my bill this month,, flung sia..

hahahah..

so i need to cut down next month..

ahahah

its alrdy _ month ++

nth happened..

so yeah..

im just waiting for the day..

but i dont know went..

im here..trying to be normal..

i dont expect alot..

but......

alright..

i just need to figure out this..

which is right for me --- ---

eventhough, my f------- getting worst

or maybe better..

which is idk..

only me can work things out..

a part from me, .......................................

P.S. why a girl is so emotional?? why a --- so .................?

2009-06-16T13:34:00.003+08:00

cant wait for tmr..
but i will feel weird lah..
coz its have been a long time..
when its the last time i met them huh??
as u can see, im a forgetful person.
ahahah
whatever lah..
my days, getting worst and boring..
revision, homeworks n lots lot more..
should i be happy or sad??
after all had happened..
idk lah..
why do some ppl or easy to say its me..
so emotional..
i tot u are strong girl.. and nice..
so what happened to u??
is it bcoz, u expect to much..
but i guess not..
but why lah??
idk,, is it to be,
happy?sad?dissappointed?shocked?curious?
or even more feelings..
i just hate it when i really cant figure it out..
not always with a smile, u alway happy inside..
i think, i begin to ask stupid qns..
after all, i cant do nothing much beside wandering,, i guess
i think no one can help..
im the only one can help myself..
alright..
be normal,, sabirah..
do not expect it too much..

P.S. i need a listening ear!!

2009-06-15T14:08:00.003+08:00

i think im crazy on stuff this days
i mean wads wrong with the convo??
why cant i just be normal..
-- is not a monster..
u noe that -- is a nice ---
why cant i say a word..
whats wrong with me...
other thing, u can do..
but why i cant do this..
its super irritating..
actually, im shy lah..
i must have the guts to do this..
its up to ---, i did it on my part..
its yr decision..
i want to a close friend of your..
'teman tapi mesra'
ahahaha
soon, things will get better..
I just hope -- are sincere towards me..
my sis told me that 'do not expect to much'
but no one knows how i feel..
i do ---- ---
till here...

P.S. I like the smile of yours.. learn it..

2009-06-15T13:49:00.003+08:00

third week of school hols..
i cant wait on 19th..
btw, it advance one..

im still sleepy..
yesterday, i slept at the latest time..
idk why i cant sleep..
serious idk why..
i was thinking abt smth,, but actually
idk what is it..
this already happened, few days back..
so yeah..
whatever lah..

im learning ----
omg!!! i cant believe it actually
my sis also quite expert in this..
so can ask her for help..
-- said, 'tum bahut khobsurat ho'
walao wei..
sachc??(really)
at first i was, like what is that..
with my sis help, i noe the meaning..
then, my sis laughed at me.
walao wei..
i really cant rmb what -- said
'beauty is the eye of the beholder'
i was like 'huh??'
the english so wonderful that i dont understand..
ahahaha
i would like to say, 'bahut bahut shukriya!'
i told --- a secret..ahaha
whatever lah
i really badly, missed school
super boring at home..
but nvm,, wed gg to sentosa..
im gonna meet them, eventually..
i miss the gerekness..
not to forget, i miss my classmates too..

P.S. im missing somebody, i guess!!!

2009-06-13T13:44:00.002+08:00

i felt that i didnt blog for ages man
hahaha
suppose to go cc at this time
hahaha
who cares.
wanna blog lah..
yesterday night was so gerek..
fun sia..
btw, why cant -- say my name
is it so difficult??
ahaha
it was fun though
miss --- actually..
that is why i wanted ------ so much

after dinner, went to dila's hse for awhile
lepak..
sory arh babe pakai kau punyer com
sajer jer aku nie..
the tumbl, nice sial..
i wish i could own those..
so yeah..
chat with some stuff..

nahum..just shocked me..
he is with hafiz right now at the lib
hahaha
wdf
alah..

i want to talk to --- so bad..
but why i cant do it??
like hello,, i cant be shy at times ok
why cant i act normal in front of ---
come on...
maybe -- didnt feel anything(u know)
but me...
i read my diary of what i had written last year..
its all memories man
i like to see ppl happy, i will also happy for them..
but,, what about me..myself..
am i happy?? or did somebody will make me happy??
will i happy or not after all i have done..
or i can say that broken...
or regret...
maybe i need more time..
someone!!! pls help me!!!

2009-06-07T10:15:00.003+08:00

all i need is guts..
why u cant do this??
just act normal lah
when i see u
my heart will beat super fast
and i do not know why..
super fast,, that no words didnt came out
from my mouth beside saying 'hi'
when i am in front of you..
why??
btw, -- is not a person that going to bite you
-- nice --- that i met..
imy

2009-06-06T19:32:00.004+08:00

im lib again..
waiting for sissy..
just finish doing some work with py at cc
the redox.. i tell you..
make s us go crazy sial!!!
i thought to meet dila..but she got some stuff to do..
so yeah..
while im doing my work at cc..
msg A, wondering where are they..
kpo sial..
like dont have other stuff to do..
LOL..
they atre still there..
ouh ya..
i still waiting for the answer lah dey!!!
is just stress me out lah..

for THAT question:
i do really ---- the way u are..
it is just different..
i dont care wad ppl say lah..
i just follow wad my heart tells me..
so yeah...

P.S answer!!!!!

2009-06-06T12:38:00.003+08:00

in the library now..
waiting for the time to FLY!!
its just remind me of shaik suddenly!!
LOL
after this, im gg cc with py..
the two guys gg for haircut..
hahaha
wonder how is their looks after the haircut..
hahaha..
yesterday, went spc with dila
doing chem..
wah!! i tell you redox, can go me crazy sial
im gonna ask py today..
i need helping hand..
then, abt 8.15 we chao..
headed to central to grab smth..
then wait for rid..
wah!! cannot tahan sia..
always disturb one another..
and my beloved friend thought im gg back home..
they, accompany till the mac(lib)
but earlier, i told her that im not gg back 1st..
so yeah.. blur girl..
but she good friend of mine..
things will go crazy when u with her
ahaha

chat with --- yesterday..
i cant believe it that i ask --- out.
ouh god...
stress u know...
then, he ask me THAT question..
wth!!
then, i decide to ask --- the question back..
i can feel that -- stress abt it..
but seriously, i want to know your feeling lah ---
and stop calling me 'cik'
LOL
-- still cant believe that actually there is a girl ---- ---
i like the way u are..
"S and C"
so yeah...
btw, im still waiting for an answer!!!
hehehehe

im gg miss my beloved classmates and friends..
i gg miss cel,LY,viona,dila,yan,kiki,uma,vanessa and all the GEREK ppl!!!

2009-06-04T12:21:00.004+08:00

so yeah.. today,, went to school as usual..
supposingly, having english..
then, i saw pale Ms J
was frustrating about smth things..
smth hwent wrong..
then, Ms P L told us that we gg to have chem..
*kening ternaik*
huh??
then, i told yan n dila that i brough nth for chem..
so yeah.. who care..
Ms J look so pale..
but she try her best to teach..
but overall was fun though..
wsated sia, some of them didnt come..
as they thought today is english all the way..
hhmmm....
so...
waiting to go for break..
we told Ms J that we dont want eng..
then, she like take our side,, not doing eng..
her reaction was so funny..
me and dila was giggling away..
so her like that for the 1st time..
so yeah...
all day, was chemistry..
at least better than english..
that always bore me to death!!
LOL
on the other hand, i also happy got to sit near ---
happy happy happy!!!
but didnt talk..
early in the morning, we smiled at each other.
ahahhaha
ouh ya,, the group of us went outside school to makan..
as the school canteen, on one pathetic chinese stall that opened..
like as if we can it like that..
excuse me!!! we eat halal food.. ok..
ahaha
so yeah.. planning to go study, with dila till night..
hopefully, can lah..
i just need peace..
hate to study at home..
some ppl will know why..
i miss chatting with ---
i hope i can stay my bro's hse this weekend..
use com till drop..
chat with --- till late night..
pls pls pls.. i need it..
argh!!!
i need to let out!!

2009-06-01T15:00:00.003+08:00

wah!!!
my O lvl MT had past..
omg..
wad i think my paper 1 was flat..
should develop more..
haiz..
so yeah...
then paper 2..
screwed up man..
especially the comprehension
that last qns, really kill me man..
wdf..
now, im at library
lazy sia to go back home..
stress u know..
no freedom..
wdf lah..
i need to talk u man...
or maybe ask u out..
but i scared..
but actually not scared but weird lah..
btw, thanks for the listening ears...
i wish i could do that in front of you..
'abit' no guts..
hhmmm...
ok sabirah,, dont harsh yorself to much..
like wad -- said, take your time..
it will be better soon..
i know u verynice person.. but most of the time
bully me lah sial..
ok lah..
hopefully, i have the guts to talk to you in person

2009-05-31T13:52:00.003+08:00

ARGH!!!
tmr is my 'O' level MT
die die die..
abit prepare.. abit not..
how??
die die die
yesterday,, mt lesson on saturday..
the middle of lesson, dc andal
'jemput' kite makan at tamil class
her gelagat was so funny
tak boleh angs lah babe..
hehehe
then in the morning, got chance sia sabirah..
but sabirah dun want to talk
sabirah stupid
sabirah sucker
sabirah slow!!!
ahahaha
tsskk ttsskk tsskk

to that person,
thanks for being there for me eventhough im suck at things
you are very understanding person..
u always there to listen to me..
i will take my time to work things right..
so yeah....
Thank You Very Much!!!

to all my beloved friends,
good luck for your MT 'O' level tomorrow
give your best..alright..
all the way people!!!!

2009-05-20T15:19:00.003+08:00

wah..
my combined humans failed..
rabak sia..
i knew it that my mid year gonna flung..
*sigh*
my mother tongue..
cikgu gave us feedback..
that we do really bad
now..
that i realised that we ppl need
to work hard..
after what we did in mid year
O lvl malay..
coming soon..
so..
i enjoy for a while..
then, i really need to back up!!!
seriously..
for all my subject..

today, had fun in ms j period..
we joked most of the her period..
today, i think i laughed alot..
but...
-- looked super sleepy
uma stop saying that..
i think she get some clues here and there..
but just 'shut up!'
SILENCE! I KILL YOU
hahahahha'
it is so funny..

wanna talked to --- some stuff..
cant make it..
'---'
i cannot live it without it..
when, i have it, why do u give me problem..
ARGHH!!!
for now, i only can blog

P.S. argh!! need the laptop fast...
hope after this, it works, dun give me problems

ouh ya, yesterday,,
saw ---, otw back home..
i was so surprised to the max..
so, i got the oppurtunity to talked to ---
i just let out..
without thhinking anything..
but, when i shot, it do make sense lah
so happy..
like, there is nth happen..
so,, yeah....

*conversation*! i really need those right now!!!

2009-05-18T13:53:00.004+08:00

laptop spoil
so..
cannot msn lah
haiz
didnt say much today..
what to do..
shy wad
btw, last paper.
tmr enjoy abit lah
but dunnoe where to go..
whatever lah
btw, uma sitting beside me right now
staring at the screen
like no life sia
hahaha
she say 'busted'
lol

wah.. today
ms jamie gave us the parent meeting form
-- standing beside me.
but i didnt say a thing
(come on sabirah, say smth)
i still didnt say a thing
then, i took my bag when out the hall
to put the form in my bag..
-- came beside me
and.....
i still didnt say a thing..
(what happened sabirah)
*sigh*
then, on the other hand,
-- also didnt say anything
ok ppl...
how great is that..
with all the silence..
it is totally different when in person
and -- ---

so, when is the day we gg to talk..
*sigh*
i like that part(midnight)
17th may
funny sia..
but bro spoil the fun lah..
so really cant continue the convos

i want to go out ---- ---
the experience..
or even the momeries..
i think it will be gerek..
who knows
over a meal...
watch movie..
or even talk a walk..
it will be fine, i guess...

P.S. pls dont do this to me..i need my laptop..ARGH!!!

2009-05-16T21:09:00.004+08:00

hello
nice anot my blogskin??
i know..
today study at cc for a while only..
actually not that study lah
mostly, we talked abt some stuffs
haiz
i will tok k
hahaha
i like wad -- said 'do u?
i just replied shyly
hahaha
cant believe that i really do it
or say it
hahaha

2009-05-16T02:37:00.003+08:00

haha..
right now chatting with adila
at 2:38am in morning
only two of us is alive
but sleepy
mata steam arh babe
hahaha

i talked just now..
-- just smiled with this cheeky looked
then, i supposed to do..
-- can said smth wad..
wth lah
i told --- that i hate u
the reply amazed and shocked me
whatever lah huh...
come on ssay smth
i just wanna listen to the voice
i cant do nth much
n just smile
btw, im shy in such way lah
then wad u expect huh??
but sometimes, yr words
hurt me real bad
especially ******
really,, that pissed me alot
btw, i dont think that way ok...
pls lah, be positive lah...
i know that im slow at times
bear with it lah, ----

P.S. reply me with a good way ----

2009-05-16T01:08:00.004+08:00

im here..
haha
one paper to go..
then im done for mid year.
but need to prepare for 'O'
die die die
wanna study really hard..
so that can go poly
polytechnic not polyclinic
hehehe
stress sia..
with study and this particular
i did say smth..
but -- just gave a smile
butu im happy
but i still dissappointed
wad -- said the past two days
i feel really bad, u know
no one knows how i feel right now..
i just wait the right time to tell
but not for now..
whatever it is..
i think i must do smth..
to get closer..
not behind, but more naturally in front
shy person..
what to do..

P.S. pls dont think that way.. I need u around

2009-05-13T12:10:00.003+08:00

today was physics paper..
first i see the paper
i go *BLANK*
screwed up man..
i want to talk just now..
but i dunnoe wad to talk about..
i took my bag
and said bye
what is the face about??
so curious..
the cheeky smile
-- just waiting for me to talk

2009-05-11T02:25:00.005+08:00

today was a very long day.
went to melacca
for the mothers' day thingy..
but im not into it

went shopping till drop

bought shirt,cap,glasses,earrings n more shirts

took alot of photos

took with the comedy suhaimi yusof

and one of the veteran actress

i dun noe wad her name..

she still look young

told my sister that i want to take pic with fauzan

she said ' gatal ehk'

no.. i just want to take with him..

seldom talk arh..

want to be friendly abit lah..

good looking guy..but cute lah

because abit short like same height with me

consider short lah
went ou from my hse 6am

then came back 1am

that was really tired..

this is fauzan..handsome kan..hehehe

2009-05-09T23:05:00.003+08:00

today is a very boring day..
went to study..
boring sia without them ..
what to do.. last min then say
haiyo..
-- loves to irritates me
untill i talk to him in person..
actually i do talk..
but dat much
always remind me
'one love'
just embarassing
that is why i like ---

2009-05-08T18:15:00.004+08:00

today was the chemistry paper

it is managable but still some question

i dun noe how to do..

*sigh*

i think things getting better

i guess..

now -- like to disturb me thru ---

what to do..

Be my close friend??

where i can share things with you

*smile*

today, ---- busted sia.. looking at me one kind

i know lah, he knows it alrdy

*sigh*

life is just sucks...

i just want to be with you

i learn smth..

"they know my name and think they know everything,

but they dont know anything about me"

i just love this..

ok..sabirah,, just have fun!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-07T14:57:00.003+08:00

why cant i speak when i face ---
and talk to ---
come on sabirah...
face it...
have the guts man
*sigh*
i faced this alone..
just go ahead lah..
-- say that im shy..
wth...
how long i will like this???
*sigh*

2009-05-05T15:07:00.003+08:00

things change..
unbelivable...
that is what i can describe right now..
i cant believe i really do this
i think this is the way..
but -- understand.
i hope -- dont hate me..
if cant, i just want to be a close friends of your
u just different from others.
no one knows what actually happened.
i went through alot this days
i just want to know what happens if -- tell --- M
i feel paisey.. if -- tells..
right is only between two of us..

P.S. don't judge by the appearance

2009-05-03T11:42:00.003+08:00

i felt embarass yesterday
ppl really remember what had happened
interestingly, they remember what
I REALLY DO..
it is so embarassing...

is there something behind it..
why huh??
i kept questioning it
why huh??

ahahaha..
after all the incident..
i felt very happy after all the embarassment..
hehehe
the way he laughs, it makes me laugh too..
interaction is all i need..
or even more of it..
should i tell..
what will his reaction will be??
hhmmm..
can somebody help me..
what A said 'don't judge or see by appearance but here'
A, he touches the heart
hopefully he does..
hoe should i react now in school..
how??
*sigh*
it just playing around my head
*sigh*
i can only *sigh* and do nothing for right now.

2009-04-27T17:39:00.003+08:00

today, i screwed up my chemistry practical test.
i thought i gonna 'ok'
but not actually..
today's weather, i tell you humid sia
and i felt very very sleepy..
miss my besties in amk..
miss you guys alot..
btw, irna holding wad party??
are you ppl gg??
im not that sure yet

exam is coming..
didnt study that
'how great is that'??
next week is mid-year sia
haiz
sit at the hall
my class is 'DAMN LUCKY'
smack in the middle of the hall
how lucky is that.
nothing much to say..
bye..

2009-04-13T17:54:00.004+08:00

today, no chemistry lsp

so went home early..

but at home super frustrating..

cant they dont bother me at least one day.

no freedom, like other people.

not yet, study for chemistry..

hopefully passed

for now, im worried of my mid year

i just started studying

how good is that..

haizz..

change topic..

time flys..

no one know..

how im going to tell

kept this in in my treasure box for so long.

the outlook is miserable

but no one know the little things

inside it..

hopefully people bothers,,

time flys very fast

with just two eyes shut

and things happen different..

certain parts, im not good

but i hope to change bit by bit

to make different situations

soulmate.....

soulmate....

hheeheee...

hopefully s------- --------t bothers..

i feel that

I'm flying solo..without a soulmate,, like a bird.....

2009-04-04T12:42:00.003+08:00

now, im in Toa Payoh Library
just finish doin ace-learning..
the qns not bad actually..
manage to do it..
this morning, headed to bishan active to accompany
my mum exercise.
me n sis, do stupid stuff. it was funny actually
then, we headed to j8 for breakfast at swensen.
ahaha,, the food was awesome!!
after, went back home
rest for awhile then go out again
n end up here, in the library..
hehe.
whoa!!!! mid year is coming..
die lah sia.. have not study..
die
die
die

whatever lah,,, btw, i got my ears pierced
HELIX!!
first, two days ut still pain..
but now, ok already..
i want to tell my sister but i scared she scold me
no one in the family knows that i pierce..
shit lah...
how to tell...

that all for now..BYE!!

2009-03-30T22:54:00.003+08:00

not yet sleep.. how good is that..(sarsacm)

no moving monday today..

so woke up later.

no need to rush..

kiki absent today, i also dun noe why..

practical LSP after school.

then, join ella n yan to record the oral.

then, came by susan and nia.

when will they talk again.

so speak up, people out there,,

u must have guts and be strong to make thing right.

what ever i said here, dun take it to heart ppl..

till here.. good night!!!

2009-03-29T11:42:00.003+08:00

fri:went to eat ice-cream at ben n jerry's

with ms jamie..can u believe it. it's the first time

btw, it her treat also..

i hanging out with liying and py, otw to novena.

nth much happen

sat:bloody boring sia.. i tot to pierce my helix but..

smth happened.. make my day worst sia

*****

went to marina barrage with kiki n dila

for a while

cant enjoy that much lah..

whatever lah..

i missed my primary school mates

sory guy, klau korang ajak aku klua, aku asyik busy jer

i want to meet u guy

really missed u all

yesterday, kiki asked a weird qns,,

i dun really expected..

haha

to kiki: i wish too... but........

till here..gtg

2009-03-24T17:30:00.003+08:00

today is class bonding.

first part was a bit boring.

but after played taboo

its fun!!

got my new hotmail account

haha

add me:sabirawr_092@hotmail.com

hehe

tmr got e-learning so

no need to alot of things that break my head

haha..

i want to change my blogskin soon

okok.in a rush..

but i still update.. bye

2009-02-14T20:51:00.002+08:00

i dun give damn actually

i finding my way to find a right path

yesterday was a great day for me

cant believe it actually

i felt that i was in my dreamland

didnt want to move from the sit despite

the human being is there

but,, its hard for me to say..

no one knows my feeling

sometime i want to let it out, but time stops me

shit lah..

now im 16, but i think its nothing

****!

i know that im not physically nice from outside

but no one cares!!

how great is that

how do i let it out??

or should i just keep quiet

or be in my dreamland

or........................

i just hate ppl asking me that qns

i didnt follow my heart and just making up

what i suppose to do??

shit lah...

is crush a crash

is crash a crush

how do i let it out when im physically like this..

hate this!!!

i just wanna scream!!!!

why my beating heart make my life miserable??

why??

'WHY'

this particular word just make me crazy

pppffttt..

im happy person outside

but

inside,, no one knows..

this how her life..

she like to makes ppl happy

but,

the girl where her fingers are tapping on the keyboard

right now

have different characters in her

her life is just like a wind

where it just blowing everywhere

which do not have a right place to stay..

2009-01-01T02:42:00.004+08:00

good bye 2008 and say HELLO!! to 2009

i cant believe it that time past very past!!

ohh gossh!!

now is 2.43am and im not sleeping yet

ard 4.45am, im gonna go airport

to depart to...

NOWHERE!!! ahaa ahaha

to fetch my sister from melbourne

ahaha...

just feeling bored..just having fun..

do u get what i mean...

nvm...

2008 is a very tough year for though

nlevel,family,friends and myself.

i hope this fresh 2009 make my life calm

and also full of hapiness eventhough

if i have to face my olevel!!!

ppfffttt..

2008-12-30T01:50:00.003+08:00

friday sch reopen!!

i very happy because i've got promoted

hehe..

its been a long time i didnt blog

sad huh??

this year npcc is #%&($ suck to the max!!

would u go for a camp without a campfire..

its totally sucks..

nvm!!

its alrdy happened..

pfftt...

today, i went to sch to buy books..

its so last minute i guess so..

aha aha!!

met sharm n we went for lunch at kfc

then we headed to popular..

the queue omg!!*mintak ampun*

then, we saw the bitchy girls..

eewww!!

im so disgusted man!!

then we saw cherries n py!!!

py look great with her new look!!

aha aha

that guy conferm cair after looked at her..

hehehe!!

forgot...........but once a whle rmb.....

why cant i forget...

the laughter, the smile

its just funny..

ahahahaha..

wtf!!!

hell ya!!!

2008-12-06T23:57:00.003+08:00

im still at punggol

currently, watching 'pirates of the caribbean'

:dead man's chest

my sissy is sitting beside me,,

asyik2 nak mengamok jer.

fed up sey..

get angry over small things.

it's so unreasonable..

ignore her like nobody business

hahaha

i just love 'captain jack sparro'

he is so funny

aha aha aha

here she come again..

angry with me again..haiz

wad to do..

our family bloods contains 'anger'

hahaha

ok lah..

that all i want to post today..

okok

chao ppl..

see u soon my beloved frens.. in sch

2008-12-05T23:47:00.003+08:00

currently lying on the sofa alone

nobody is ard me

now, im at punggol

my two nieces and my sister in law sleep alrdy

im not yet sleepy

i miss sch, my sch uniform, n the fun ppl in sch

mry result coming out soon..oh my gosh!!

each day approaching and im getting nervous..seriously!!

i haven check my schedule for next week..shit!!

this coming wednesday, im going to sentosa with nurul n gang

hahahaha..

but, after that need to go for dance classs..

its quite a journey.. but its ok.

fun punyer psl..aha aha aha aha

I HATE THE WORD 'TRUST'

2008-11-28T15:39:00.004+08:00

once in a blue moon

.FRIENDS.WHOM U TRUST,LOVE,SHARE THOSE PAIN AND HAPPINESS,CARE FOR YOU.

.FRIENDS. MOSTLY WE DEPEND ON..WHICH IS A 2ND IMPORTANT PART OF EVERYONES LIVE.

.FRIENDS. WHOM ALSO CAN ABANDONED YOU AND CHEATED ON YOU..

THAT IS WHY WE LOST TRUST ON THEM..

BEST OF ALL,, WHY PEOPLE SAY 'THIS IS MY BESTFRIEND'

'I LOVE THEM'

I JUST HATE THOSE WORDS..

REAALLY MAKES ME PISSED OFF LIKE NOBODY BUSINESS..

WHY DO WE HAVE A 'BACK STABBER'

PEOPLE WILL SAY 'I HATE BACKSTABBERS' AND

THEY WILL TELL OTHERS AND PUT ON THIER PROFILE AND ETC

BUT ON THE OTHER HAND, YOU CAN BE CALLED A 'BACK STABBER'

BECAUSE OF.... THE ADVANTAGE YOU HAVE OR WHAT U GOING TO GET..

AND THIS DISADVANTAGE TO THE 'FRIENDS' THAT BELIEVE IN YOU AND TRUSTED YOU.

SOME FRIENDS DO NOT EVEN WANT TO SHARE THINGS WITH YOU

BECAUSE.. THEY CHOOSE TOO..

BUT THEY STILL CAN SAY 'YOU ARE MY BELOVED FRIEND'

DO YOU PISSED AFTER READING THIS..

DO TELL ME IN MY TAGBOARD

FUCK YOU!

2008-11-19T15:48:00.003+08:00

hey..hey..hey..

been a long time, since the last time blogging

btw, tody not working..got my body rest

but later gotta go for hiphop class..

my sister going to sydney tonight..

i want to follow her but cannot..

haiz..

hope she bought some souvenirs for me when she is back..

hahaha..

nia, bought me smth from cambodia.. cant wait to meet her..

i so miss her lah n the sery berry.. i miss yr laughing arh babe

hehe..

i also miss my two babe at amk..nurul n mimah..

btw, i missssss my classmates..

i misssss u all u noe..

nvm..we will meet some other time hahaha..

till here..chao!!!

2008-11-12T00:13:00.004+08:00

my second day of working at F.A.

quite tiring actually..

long time, i nv stood up that long..

but nvm.

its an experience in every turn..

i missed my gf, the macho n my beloved classmates.

dear 4n1'08

do help me contact the other for the bbq

in east coast on 26th nov..

inform me or cel by text us!!

whether u guys can make it or not..

those who knows alrdy, please passed dwn the msg

to other ppl..

okok..

im going to sleep alrdy..

tmr work long hours til closing.. haiz..bye..

2008-11-07T22:27:00.003+08:00

hey peeps!!!

today, i woke up very early than before

me,dila n kiki went to bishan active

wanted to play vb in the sandy court

but, we dun noe need to book..

35 buck sia..

end up play in the shelter..

mumzie came along with my two nieces

after playing, we sat n chit chat

then we went separated ways

monday, i start work alrdy..

i felt good arh..

COZ after one mth, i got my pay..

ah aha aha aha...

coz i really need money..

chao..

hey, babes photo haven upload yet..

i will upload asap...

fucking boring!!!

2008-11-05T01:20:00.004+08:00

freak..

i just want my hair to be fucking long

but my curls ruin it..

so, i think im gonna cut my hair soon

frust!!

pls,, call me!!

dead!!

ppfftt

im still awake in fucking morning, 1.42am

ggggrrrr..

yea..

went to j8 with mumzie n nieces

pay bill, ate at mac for lunch, walk n walk

then, headed home..

before that, went to bishan active..

it was so freaking cool..

i love the exercise place..

it was fucking amazing..

wooohooo!!!!

the playground amazed me too..

next time, i will my ask my gfs n machos

to play volleyball..

the volleyball court cool!!!

tmr 4n4 going o cambodia.. best sey..

jealous..

ahahahaha..

what ever!!!

2008-11-04T03:11:00.003+08:00

saturday

met kiki at j8 n im late abt half an hr

bcoz i slept over at my brother's hse

at punggol..

sorry babe..kept u waiting..

we hunt for jobs..

went to novena..

walk here.. walk there..

we applied a few..

felt hungry, went to mac

eat n chit chatting..

then, saw ella's family..

without her n lauren..

after that, headed to mosque to meet

my mother but b4 we separate ways..

we saw a few of kids in a huge ball

filled with air..

n they were floating above water..

it was so cool..

ahaha..

then, we headed separate ways..bye!!

sunday

i had my religious exam

it was tough..

bcoz, the ustazah nv told us

that, wad we learnt in mid yr oso

will come out..

screwed up!!

but, i peeped the person beside me..

aha..aha..

copy!!

then, went my cuzzin wedding..

the groom was my cuzzin n the bride

is from thailand..

her face looked like 'malay+chinese'

her mate blh tahan sepet..

watever..

then headed, to parkway parade

jln2..

then, went back home

today, monday

i was late again to meet dila n kiki

sorry babes..

bcoz of the long Q,

i want to deposit money..

went to novena..

then, headed to city hall

without dila..

coz we want to applied at robinson

it was fucking packed lah!!

wah!! the minahs arh..

looked at us like we come from other planet..

i just felt to 'korek' their eyeball

n left lying on the ground..

n let them crawl on the floor and find their eyeball..

(mean!!!)

hahahaaha!!

swa atiqah n winnie, when we otw

going back to tp

headed to fork n spoon

makan!!

kebulur..otw, to tp

in mrt, i saw my primary sch mates..

they wanted to say hi to me but

their reactions told me that

"maybe wrong person how?? paiseh sia.."

i want to laugh but maintain

reached fork n spoon,

we served ourself with a bowl of

ban mian..

yum yum!!

delicious..

2008-11-01T01:41:00.003+08:00

hey..

im still awake at 1.42 am.

ahaha..

now, im at my brother's hse

sleep over with my annoying sissy

ppfftt...

just finish watching ANTM..

this few days..

im just into ANTM..

its beyond awesome!!

love it so much..

tmr, im going hunting for jobs with kiki..

alahai!! dila is not coming for some reason..

btw, i missed sch n friends

class chalet cancel, but we goin to BBQ

i will inform my classmate more abt it..yarhs!!

i want to sleep.. few days back,,

i had not enough sleep..

gonna sleep right away!!

CHAO!!!

jobs..jobs..jobss

2008-10-30T19:17:00.003+08:00

hey..

today woke up at 12pm..as usual!!

quickly take a bath n headed to interview

at tagore lane.. went here with a cab..

n the lady asked me just a

few of pathetic qns..

im quite pissed off actually..

py recommended me..

they told me to wait for their call..

hmmm..

then, headed to thomson plaza..alone!!

to check if there is any vacancy there..

n i tried at 'bata'

alot of qns asked..

so see 1st..

till here!!

chao!!

recently sleep late

2008-10-28T02:41:00.003+08:00

hey..

now, im still awake at 2.30am

still dun have any job sey..

how miracle is that!!

and today, miracle thing happened too

i break record..i woke up at 2.35pm

hahaha..

sleep like a pig sia!!

i wasted my time with my sissy psp!!

hahaha

it was her bdae gift..

best sey..

i oso want lah..

freak!!

any one can recommend jobs!!

i need money!!

pppffffttt!!!!

HSM3 is beyond awesome!!!

2008-10-26T01:29:00.004+08:00

today, i feel i was new..hehe..new shirt n pants..hahaha

went j8 with my sissy n mummy

bought some stuff

i get myself a pouch

mummy bought a handbag

my sissy bought a pants

walk,walk,walk

ahead back home

rest,rest,rest

watch hindi movie..

was nice.

talk with sissy n

planning to watch HSM3

my 2nd time watching

hehehehe(smile)

it AWESOME!!!

ZAC EFRON is totally HOT!

it will be great if my school

have that kind of musical..

i will be full with enthusiasm n be the first one

participate!!
haizz..

too bad!!!pffftt...

2008-10-24T21:14:00.004+08:00

went to j8 to catch a movie with atiqahSUP
we watched HSM3:senior year..
it was awesome,great,fabulus,beautiful,gorgeous movie!!!
seriously i wanna watch again..gfs missed it..
it was fucking cheap..the ticket cost $$6 only..
we bought halloween combo n nachos
yan will love what i got to show him..hehehe

u missed it!
i wanna watch again!!

2008-10-23T17:44:00.005+08:00

22nd october 2008
went to meet adila @ 3.20pm
supposingly to meet at 3pm
i was late..sorry..
asked her for accompany
went to pizza hut to give a try..
but no more vacant..v said
then, we try applied at watson..
after that, when skygarden
eat sushi and checked jobs at newspaper
hahaha..5++pm..went home

today
went to school to pay school fees
reach sch met ms fauziah and asked me
how is N level.. i told her im speechless
n she laughed.. then, i feel paiseh because
i didnt read the letter properly
actually no need to go to sch n pay the sch fees
waste my time.. haha my fault to lah..haha
stupid!!
reached home, on the com n replied ms jamie email
for a long period of time.. hehe.
then, accompany my mom for a haircut..
her sideburn kene shaved off..like botak..
hehehe! (sorry mummy)
her haircut was nice actually
i cant wait for my hair to grow long... n i wanna cut..
chopped all the straight hair..HAHAHA!!!
i trimmed my fringe after my mom's haircut
hehehe!!

**pls call me back.. damn it**

2008-10-22T13:41:00.005+08:00

boring!

my holidays just full with boredom..

why they just cant phone me and say

"u can start tmr"

ppfftt!!!!

only my girlfriends n the witch make my day

thank god

i have them!!!

hey girlfriends..

i have not upload the hari raya

photos!!

keep waiting yaa...

but dun worry

i will upload n send to by

email!!

by fax also can..

jkjkjkjk

ltr gonna dila @ 3pm

gonna hunt jobs at tpy..

if there is any lah..

i missed *+*+*+*+*+

especially the laughter and smile

when we gonna meet again

hopefully there will be next time

only u that i cant forget

there is amazing thing in you

that i amazed of

ok enough...ppfftt..

dah kelain pulak nie minah..

haiz..

what to do..

every girl remember the beautiful

moments that they cant forget

pheeww!!!

my life getting so boring each day

2008-10-15T15:16:00.006+08:00

yesterday, went out to meet nurul n tiffany

supposingly to meet up @ 12pm

waited them for an hour....

as i waited n waited..

i saw hasif..

hehehe..

then, waited for so long,,

i decided to meet hamimah at fareast

but nurul just near by me..

so plan changed

so we meet up at city hall..

after that hamimah tag along with us..

went to shoduko restaurant to find jobs..

but is already full..

haiz..

den,, try on J.lo, topshop, etc..

den, haliff came by..

waited for like waited the rain to fall..

pissed off!!

then, met dila n kek @ city hall..

we headed to marina square..

we try on the wallet shop but

they want a person that

experieced in sale..

damn!!

i bought earings @ diva

nurul got herself a pouch

n tiff got herself handband

haliff got nothing!!

hehehe..

I MISSED MY CLASSMATES
N MY BELOVED MACHO N

BABES!!!!

this is some photos we took yesterday

we took @ tiff's work place

camwhoring while waiting for haliff..haiz!!
otw back home..

2008-10-13T19:08:00.003+08:00

hey!! hey!! hey!! today i went my cousin hse..
nothing much happen!!
yesterday went suntec city..
n guess what!!!
i went there to meet the KING KHAN
SHAH RUKH KHAN...
the ppl kept pushing n pushing...
n my blood kept raising n raising!!
but go to hell arh..
i push them as hard i can!!!
but sadly cant get his autograph..
but greatfully, met him n got to waved at him!!
hehehehe..
the photos have ot upload yet..
after that, headed raffles city to buy my mom's birthday present..
n i got her a purse..
then, headed back home by cab..
phewww!!!

2008-10-11T13:03:00.003+08:00

just woke up..yesterdat slept quite late..yesterday went for jalan raya..with nurul,regnard,hamimah,syahir,haliff,udin,dilla n yan.. i bring dila n yan along..hehehe.. supossingly, to meet @ 2pm.. waited n waited 2.30pm all meet..me,dilla,yan reach there @ 1.30pm..to be early i suppose..nvm..dilla n yan only went for one hse..sedih seh..nvm... went home late yesterday i reach home @ 10.45pm.. i guess..cant rmb..but my other friends, still headed to ariffin hse..i cant make lah..its already late at night.... nvm..have fun actually!! till here..

2008-10-08T13:23:00.004+08:00

i feel very happy coz i already finish my last paper..poa paper yesterday..WOOOHHOOO!!! but on the other hand,, i feel bored.. do nothing at home.. im deciding to find work lah... really bored now.. yesterday was awesome..chat with arif.. it was bloody fun..hahaha.. den went geylang with my parents.. then, i reached home.. slept for 3 hours.. very long.. coz, past few days really cant sleep......smth scary!!!...haha.. till here!!!

2008-10-03T20:14:00.002+08:00

2008-10-03T19:41:00.003+08:00

today was geog n maths P2..morning, having maths paper 2hrs.. cannot take it..But KECOH!!.
do u noe what..mawar's hp rang.. he damn stupid lah.. take national,, still bring hp inside the hall..THEN,, he dun wan to admit sey..fuck sia!!! den all the teachers spot check on us lah... waste my time.. asshole..alot of ppl alrdy freezing to death..before exit the door, again spot check..den hafiz kena caught.1stly, he also *ngong* bring hp inside the hall.. but nvm..if mawar admit..there will no spot check lah..STUpid mawar..

next paper start @ 2 pm.. when mac to eat.. it was fun coz all the way we having a wonderful n laughable moments.. hehehe.. with adila n kek.. the funny part was *the traffic light*..aha aha aha aha aha!!!!!!! tak leh angkat.. btw, vanessa got a job.. hehehehehe..i haven yet sia.. i also dun noe when..so good!! most of my friends today is their last paper.. best sey!! but on the other hand,, its also the last day for most of them.. im gonna missed them.. i will missed the bullying moments,, laughable moments n my beloves machos n babes!!!

but there will be the time,, we will meet again..

wish me luck for my last poa paper..

chaos..

2008-09-05T22:17:00.003+08:00

ARRHH!my english, ss n MT paper..all cocked up. english: hate paper 1. ss: cant finish dat bloody paper. MT: actually not so bad..hehehe..i scared dat i fail my english..mampos lah like that..stress lah sey... but wat to do..is alrdy happened..

i dun noe wad happen to my links sey. (click here) (click there) cannot go thru..especially adila n kek.. frust arh!! nxt week,, must asked dem..hhhmmm

i want to buy headset,slippers,polo t, shoes, camera, hp cover, dresss.... alot of things..BUT no fulus!! collecting...

STRESSS!!!!

deeply-empty-soul-but-chaotic

sleepy head

2008-09-01T10:30:00.004+08:00

Iwoke up from my bed..currently, now is 10.33am. tmr is my BIG day.it start by the Mother Tongue paper.. it is my first time taking national exam..i feel very worried since yesterday + i didn't attend my religious class too.. bcoz my prelims, i got 11 points lah sey.. what i want is just,, to go sec 5..*sigh* wish me luck ppl!!

PEOPLE!

GOOD LUCK TO THOSE WHO ARE TAKING 'N' LEVEL TMR!

Hhmm..today is where the muslim ppl start fasting..To bad for me, i can't fst lah sey..got girls problem!! This is my first time that i cannot fast on the first fay of the fasting month..i will my two niece lah.. they just a little kids that cannot fast..

To my beloved muslim friends, HAPPY FASTING!

currently my eyes looked like gooldfish

2008-08-29T23:59:00.005+08:00

heyheyhey... nv update for some time..

to day was the teachers' day celebration.

it was boring actually..

i lyke the bands and the sec 4 performance..

i think overall was messy lah..

plus the ACES..it was fucking shit to the hardcore..

i saw him n his friends came to school

glad to see him after a long time

he still the same..

****** him actually..

den, at 11+, we went fork n spoon to makan..

ouh ya.. forget to tell..

moody gives kek nike shoe sey....

tak blh angkat..

NIKE SHOE..U NOE..

with her favourite colour somemore..

yan kept saying 'dah ader di depan mata, jgn ditolak'

hahaha.

back to makan..

den vanessa came.

chit chat chit chat.. took photo..testing my photograhy skill

haha

den, we went to ftpps.. im only the odd one lah..

i just follow them..

we saw dawood,arif,ridwan,michael n gang,celeste,huiqing,

n more more more more dat i dun noe..

ouh ya..i met yan's amirul

he looks like a balloon and funny!!

sorry..

den..i went back home..

to my beloved BABES N MACHOS from 4n's

good luck for next week..

first time taking n level..

so do the best, u can..

ALL THE BEST..

2008-08-10T16:11:00.003+08:00

today woke up at 10am..need to go for my religious class..last week i ponteng because of Ms Siti's wedding.. i took taxi coz it's getting late.. my class starts at 11.30am and i step out of my hse door at 11am. btw, my religious class is at GEYLANG(pls dun think dirty.hehe).i reached there, 15 mins later.."alahai!! eaarrly pulak..i tot reached there just nice.."

Den went to CHeers to grab a drink-mocha..

i walked in SLOW pace..and reached the class on time.. today's class was quite exciting lah..ustazah crack some jokes and some of the guys join in...lagi fun..

Hey ppl, do u wanna know something about where actually soccer come about??

Actually, long long time ago(zaman nabi), grandson of Rasulullah-Nabi Sayidina Hussain. His head was chopped of by (dunnoe hu-cant rmb) and throw the head on the ground and kicked the head, like PLAYING SOCCER..eeeeee!!!!

change topic..after classs, went to banquet to eat LAKSA..it was fucking delicious lah..yum yum!! with bandung....

after the delicious lunch, went home to finish my TESTIMONIAL..but PHEW!! its already done now..